Interesting...

I have not posted to this blog in some time. Not that it really matters as no one reads it but myself or the one or two people that have the time when I say "Hey, I posted, read my blog!"
So the inevitable has happened, I have lost my job. I knew I would eventually, I just hated it there. Hated every moment and I just kept smiling and showing up like I enjoyed it. I think that is what has created such a hatred growing inside of me. Luckily I have a way of suppressing such feelings so as not to allow others to have to deal with it too.
I'm pretty optimistic that this losing of my job thing is a good push in the right direction for me. It was either that or be miserable for the rest of my life and regretting every future decision I will have made. Now the question is do I go back to school and get my masters or do I set out on another career path? What that career path is beyond me, so school is the most logical choice at this time. Two full years of hard work and studying, can I handle it? The funny thing is, even if I can't fully handle it I know that is what I want to do. I love learning and lately I have not been keeping up with my need of fulfilling my days with much needed knowledge-nonsensical or not. I blame it on the boredom and hatred of my former job. I never believed it, but it really does mess with your head on all kinds of different levels. I have always believed myself to be a happy person-someone that could easily fit into any situation and even turn a bad situation into a...well...not so bad one, but lately I just haven't been giving a fuck. I've just been tired of all the nonsense.
Instead of taking this as a horrible mess of a situation I am going to make this positive. So far I have the support from the people that mean the most to me, so let's just keep up with that and not fall into a crazy downward spiral.
This is a new starting point in my life. I shall use this to my advantage and not take advantage of it.
I have been researching the Library Information and Science Masters degree; I'm on the fence about it so I think I may take a few days to look into some other options. I really want to do something worth while with my life. Something I will be proud of saying "Yes, this is what I do for a living" not what I had previously said "yeah, I have a job..." Now let's just get over the hump of saying "Right now I'm searching my options..." HAHA Love it.