I have come to the conclusion I am a very selfish person. No one has come right out and told me this, though I don't know why, but I know I am. I talk to people and listen to people, but I never follow up with people. My friends will tell me important information about their lives. Yes, I will listen and remember what is going on, but do I ever follow up with them? They do all the time, as I pretty much make it a point for them to. Selfish. I have a friend who's mother is in rehab. Do you think I would have taken the time out to see if she is OK, let alone her mother? But did she not send me information pertaining to my injury in hopes that I may heal faster? Does she not ask me how I'm feeling when I seem a bit off?
I have another friend who listens and reads about all my complaining and instead of telling me to shut the fuck up, she says she enjoys the updates. Do I ever ask her on an update from her life?
The real kicker is, I am helping plan a birthday party for my brother. I know he does not want to go, but I told him he had to go. Is that just not the sickest thing ever?
Well, I'm off to the middle of no where this weekend to meet up with some college friends. The trip in itself should be interesting as I am driving alone, after a full days work for almost 4 hours down to Southern Ohio. Well, maybe southwestern. We used to have a blast in college-I swear I would have been a complete dork with a 4.0 GPA and no life what-so-ever if it wasn't for those girls. I have to admit, I'm glad of it. I mean, don't get me wrong, who doesn't want a 4.0 in college, but at the same time, college was a true growing point for me. I learned who I was and what I was capable of. What's that saying? Something about a leaf? Turn the leaf or something-whatever it is, that's what it was for me. That also was when my brother and I became closer. I don't know why; it may have been because he couldn't stand my other sister during that time.
Well, I'm not really writing anything worthy so I will leave it at that. Have a good weekend! No, really, I mean it!
Friday, June 25, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
What?!
Ah! It’s been a long, long time! What have you been up to? Well, I guess I would know if I had been reading people’s blogs and writing my own. I have been tied up with some issues. Mainly called, I’m tired. I have just been so tired all the time I could not get my lazy ass off the couch that was not 5 feet away from the computer to type anything more than a sentence long on to my blog. Just plain laziness is what that is.
Anyway, I have been suffering bouts of depression due to the fact I have injured myself enough that I can no longer run. I’ve tried, believe me, but I just can’t do it. For weeks I have been beating myself up, for what, I don’t know. There was nothing I could do about it. But now, the realization has crept in that what I was doing to help heal myself may have been the wrong thing to do and it was actually hindering any chance of a quick, full recovery. Now I don’t know what to do. But, at least I have found other forms of exercise that excite me almost as much as running. I started cycling and I will eventually go out on the road and do some street biking. The only draw back with that is your bum gets a bit sore in certain places due to the seat. I never understood why the bike seat was made two sized too small for your butt. And there ain’t nobody who fits comfortably on a bike seat without any alterations. You find me that person and I will literally give you my life savings.
I have also started a new program. Jillian Michaels diet and exercise plan. For 30 days the challenge is to get yourself on a strict diet and follow her exercise program to a T and you will lose 10 pounds and be ripped! It is day 3 into the program-granted, it is also my first day ‘off’ from exercise-give it a rest already, will ya? But I am feeling really good about this. The diet thing is the hardest as I have to go shopping to get the proper foods, but my diet thus far has been pretty good that I don’t have to make any major changes. The exercises are KILLER, yet I LOVE it! If I wasn’t in the shape I already am in there would be no way I would be able to make it through an entire rotation. It is hard enough at the level I am at right now. But that is the good thing, you can put as much or little effort as you want into the exercises. I have been going full blast. Granted, it does leave the body a bit sore, but following the program allows for your muscles to take a break while you do other exercises.
For anyone that wants to lose 10 pounds I suggest the Jillian Michaels Making the Cut plan. So far so good! But you have to have the right mind set otherwise you will get disappointed. Also, you will need 30 days out of your life to focus on hard core exercise and NOT on partying. I picked the wrong month for that…
Ever wonder what the morality level is for a person who leaves a large bill in the collection basket, yet takes out a couple smaller bills as ‘change’? I mean, technically they are leaving a donation, right?
Anyway, I have been suffering bouts of depression due to the fact I have injured myself enough that I can no longer run. I’ve tried, believe me, but I just can’t do it. For weeks I have been beating myself up, for what, I don’t know. There was nothing I could do about it. But now, the realization has crept in that what I was doing to help heal myself may have been the wrong thing to do and it was actually hindering any chance of a quick, full recovery. Now I don’t know what to do. But, at least I have found other forms of exercise that excite me almost as much as running. I started cycling and I will eventually go out on the road and do some street biking. The only draw back with that is your bum gets a bit sore in certain places due to the seat. I never understood why the bike seat was made two sized too small for your butt. And there ain’t nobody who fits comfortably on a bike seat without any alterations. You find me that person and I will literally give you my life savings.
I have also started a new program. Jillian Michaels diet and exercise plan. For 30 days the challenge is to get yourself on a strict diet and follow her exercise program to a T and you will lose 10 pounds and be ripped! It is day 3 into the program-granted, it is also my first day ‘off’ from exercise-give it a rest already, will ya? But I am feeling really good about this. The diet thing is the hardest as I have to go shopping to get the proper foods, but my diet thus far has been pretty good that I don’t have to make any major changes. The exercises are KILLER, yet I LOVE it! If I wasn’t in the shape I already am in there would be no way I would be able to make it through an entire rotation. It is hard enough at the level I am at right now. But that is the good thing, you can put as much or little effort as you want into the exercises. I have been going full blast. Granted, it does leave the body a bit sore, but following the program allows for your muscles to take a break while you do other exercises.
For anyone that wants to lose 10 pounds I suggest the Jillian Michaels Making the Cut plan. So far so good! But you have to have the right mind set otherwise you will get disappointed. Also, you will need 30 days out of your life to focus on hard core exercise and NOT on partying. I picked the wrong month for that…
Ever wonder what the morality level is for a person who leaves a large bill in the collection basket, yet takes out a couple smaller bills as ‘change’? I mean, technically they are leaving a donation, right?
Monday, June 7, 2010
Better now?
Well, considering I have not posted anything of interest in some time I thought I would write a quick note. I have thought of many, many interesting things to write about that had really little to do with anything. But by the time I would find myself at home ready to get in front of the computer to type, type, type away, I found that eating snacks, watching mindless chatter on the boob tube or sleeping a much better distraction-I didn't have to think...at all.
I have been in a depressed state of mind for a few weeks. Why you ask? Because I have hurt me bum and have not been able to run. You may say: Why Jennifer, there is no need to be so depressed just because you can't run. Well dear friend, yes, yes there is and you wouldn't understand until it happened to you. I went to a book club meeting this past Friday and one of the members, who also runs, hurt her knee and has not been able to run either. We felt each others pain (literally) and for those few brief hours I was able to feel as if I was not alone and someone could relate to what I was going through.
Then yesterday came and I decided to bite the bullet and go for a run. I ran for a good 20 minutes with minimal pain, but had to ice down as soon as I got home. This morning I woke up with the dreadful feeling that my leg would have fallen off in my sleep, but to my surprise, I was fine. Not only that, but I did interval training with my friends and was not only able to jog to each station, but I did the last loop around ahead of them! I don't want to push it too hard, but I'm feeling good! Of course I iced down again tonight, but I am completely optimistic from where I was just a few weeks ago. Of course there will be no marathon runs in the next few months, but I should be able to build up strength and speed for October. So, depression will slowly seep out, running will slowly build in and I will once again be a happy camper.
Ciao!
I have been in a depressed state of mind for a few weeks. Why you ask? Because I have hurt me bum and have not been able to run. You may say: Why Jennifer, there is no need to be so depressed just because you can't run. Well dear friend, yes, yes there is and you wouldn't understand until it happened to you. I went to a book club meeting this past Friday and one of the members, who also runs, hurt her knee and has not been able to run either. We felt each others pain (literally) and for those few brief hours I was able to feel as if I was not alone and someone could relate to what I was going through.
Then yesterday came and I decided to bite the bullet and go for a run. I ran for a good 20 minutes with minimal pain, but had to ice down as soon as I got home. This morning I woke up with the dreadful feeling that my leg would have fallen off in my sleep, but to my surprise, I was fine. Not only that, but I did interval training with my friends and was not only able to jog to each station, but I did the last loop around ahead of them! I don't want to push it too hard, but I'm feeling good! Of course I iced down again tonight, but I am completely optimistic from where I was just a few weeks ago. Of course there will be no marathon runs in the next few months, but I should be able to build up strength and speed for October. So, depression will slowly seep out, running will slowly build in and I will once again be a happy camper.
Ciao!
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