Can I get one out???

I had all intentions of forming a somewhat cohesive blog entry today. I even thought I would have a beer or two to start the ease into forming words onto the computer screen. For some reason I find it difficult. Because I find myself in a funk. I have been thinking about one thing lately and it is driving me crazy.

Anyway, I have decided to run 3 half marathons within 3 months. I ran the first one a few weeks ago and the second one is coming up rather quickly. This Friday I am going to attempt 14 miles on my own. Oh goodness...I have not ran that many miles by myself before. This could be an interesting feat. I am going to reward myself with something afterwards on if I run it the entire way and only stop at mile 6 and possibly again at mile 11 for a quick pick up treat. I guess I will run it at the park either from Brecksville to Pennisula and back or vice versa. Oh goodness I'm slightly excited yet apprehensive as I have not done this before. If I can do the 14 with no problems I am set...all set!! Ok, just think positive thoughts. Right now that's all I have going for me. I am seriously sick of negative thoughts and I just want to know if I'm loved or not. HAHAHA Yeah, that was out of left field. But it is true.I would have found out today if my dumbass wasn't so dumb. I don't like the feeling of rejection and I have come to the conclusion I like the quiet-if it's being left alone or just sitting quietly with someone; I enjoy that more than being surrounded with people talking, talking talking all the time.

I'm just going to post this as obviously nothing else is going to come from these finger connected to this brain tonight. Damn Dorito's, I wouldn't mind if I didn't eat a complete chocolate bar by myself plus a piece of pizza and a biscuit made for strawberry shortcake. At least I didn't use the cool whip; but the two beers made up for that. FUCK!!!