abstinence

It is so easy to be abstinent from something if you have never had the pleasure of it before. Alcohol, sex, drugs, junk food or whatever it may be. Once you have had the taste of it is when you have the trouble of letting go.
For a long time I have tried to be abstinent from alcohol. I would go for awhile and then the better part of me (well, the better part in my minds eye at the time alcohol is involved) would take over and the cool, refreshing liquid would pour down my throat and go into my belly creating yet another struggle-the ever increasing waist size. I can't blame all my problems on alcohol-though most of them stem from it. Why does my brain like the feeling so much? I can't have just one and that's what makes it even harder. Oh I love beer.

I went out this afternoon to meet up with a friend for lunch since she had some free time (and all I seem to have now is free time). We then went to Burlington Coat Factory just to kill time. I miss those days when you just went around doing nothing yet had a good time doing it. I found out that I actually look good in those oversized straw beach hats. I almost bought one, then realized what a waste of money it would be here in Ohio. OHIO...Cleveland, the waste land of happiness. UGH! At least the sun is out today...and where am I?

I need to start living life to the fullest, take every compliment and good look as they are. Grasp hold of the good things and let the bad things roll off the back. I mean, I always have been that way, but lately it's been hard to keep up with it. Guess I will just have to work harder at it now. What a struggle. Well, if it was a struggle it wouldn't be real.

I can't wait until my full marathon training starts. I'm so scared yet excited. Running more mileage just to see what I can accomplish. I know I can do it; look how far I have already come! No abstinence when it comes to running; but maybe the alcohol part should be pushed forward more.

Well, cheers! HA